What are my options if I have a bench warrant?

I was sick about two months ago and had to stop classes that probation told me I had to go to. Through some mix up, they sent letter to PO saying I was terminated for unexcused absences. My doctor faxed excuses to them for every session missed and PO knew that, had a deferred problem jail term that was left to PO if I ever did. Two days before I’m supposed to surrender, I get handed the confinement order. I file an appeal, don’t surrender-While the appeal still open he writes the court this letter to the court -He sounded like some spoiled little girl. Appeal dismissed filed a reconsider. While that was still open the PO files a petition to revoke saying I was terminated from the program because of my attitude and I didn’t cooperate. I can’t help but see that the PO is being vindictive because I exercised my rights and knowing in a revocation proceeding. This Bench Warrant would issue, I’d be in jail anyway until the matter was done and as a probationer I was already at a disability in the matter. I’d have no access to my files at home to produce the letter or the fax Dr, notes. I can’t get an attorney to take my case soon as the hear SSDI is my only income. I’ve had to become Joe Proper, looking at the court rules. On the petition EITHER a summons OR a warrant can issue-another rule says you can appear by video but not in prob rev. Here is my idea- because my health has been crap and jail will make it worse and one minute in jail = no SSDI, I will file a Waiver of Appear/Entry of Denial/motion to set revocation hearing date with a motion to quash explaining my health and situation and put oath in motion to appear. This in theory will bounce the initial appear after arrest the arraignment and take me right to the violation hearing. I will stay out of jail be able to keep looking for an attorney and keep my house my health and sanity.