What happens on a second offense retail fraud, being charged as first degree because of prior second degree conviction?

I am being summons to court for the charge of retail fraud first degree. This is my second offense, my first was retail fraud 2nd degree. The first offense occurred four years ago, and I paid all fines and I am not on probation. This is all being said, I am terrified of going. One may ask why commit another offense, and to this I have no real answer other than the fact that I suffer from several different mental disorders including borderline personality disorder and PTSD. I have been trying to divorce my husband for four years as well which has also contributed to financial hardship, as I was a stay at home mother and military wife for 23 years. I am leaving my marriage because of domestic violence- physical, emotional, mental and financial. Three days prior to this incident, I contacted my family physician asking for help because I did not feel my medication was working correctly. I was feeling suicidal and hopeless. Her answer was to prescribe me a tranquilizer which I refuse to take because was already sleeping 12-15 hours per day. What I took was valued at $468.00. I returned it all to the store after I realized what I had done and knew it was wrong. I have also secured a job so I now have income coming in. This offense occurred 250 miles from my home. I took food for children because had no money to feed them after paying all I had to re-establish insurance on my vehicle that my husband cancelled. I need help and I am begging for any type of assistance or advice anyone can give me. I do not know what to do. My inner voice is saying to ignore it and not go to court, my conscious mind is telling me I need to be responsible. Please help me.