Could it affect the other co parent not allowing our 4 year old not talking to me on the phone

My daughter passed left behind a 4 month old baby boy, I was grieving really bad over my daughter and fighting for my grandson,judge got mad with a text I wrote, I will remember this when I get custody, I said it out of emitions because the other grandparents wasn’t allowing me to see him on his one year old birthday, their lawyer made it out like I said it twice but I never been in court and really nervous and crying , I appealed it and brought all the evidence of the other grandparents abused because the first judge wasn’t aware of it ,judge didn’t reverse it,I appealed it to the court of appeals, it was left as is been over 2 years now and I got pictures where my grandson had bruises, where they won’t allow me to talk to him on the phone,won’t agree to any learning program not even a tutor., got proof that I’m the one with taking him to all his doctors and taking care of him. I been off of anti depression medicine for over 2 years because that was also used against me.