i gave up my right but want him back cause i feel like i was peasure in to doing it

Reestablishing rights to a child is possible, but will involve some degree of work and good facts.  You will need to have the court determine that it is in the child's best interest, the reason that your rights were terminated no longer exist, etc.  You can do it yourself, but if you are serious, you may want to hire an attorney to assess your case and represent you.