I need a lawyer but need to keep it a secret.

Any consultation with an attorney about getting a possible divorce from your husband, whether on the telephone, or in person at the lawyer's office, is covered by attorney-client confidentiality. No one will know that you have consulted with an attorney, but you. if you believe your husband poses a physical threat to you, you can also file a domestic abuse restraining order to keep your husband away from you; you can also request in the initial restraining order that he be removed from the home and to have no contact with you whatsoever. In terms of paying for attorney's fees, many attorneys offer a free consultation where it won't cost you anything to get some initial advice from an attorney; if you can't afford an attorney, the attorney you are meeting with may be able to steer you to some not for profit legal organizations that could assist you with obtaining a divorce or refer you to another attorney where you pay as you go for the services, without having to come up with a large retainer; some attorneys also take credit cards for you make the initial retainer to allow you the ability to afford lawyer fees. There are many possibilities and options open to you.