how can i get help with getting disability

If you can not work due to medical conditions, and your doctor(s) agree, apply with SSA.  Submit copies of what records you have and give a complete list to SSA and they will obtain them for you. You can apply in person, by phone, or online.  If you are denied, seek competent counsel by going to this link and finding someone near you.  Hire counsel now if you feel uncomfortable proceeding alone or because of your health are not up to the task. Good luck to you.