Can I get emancipated while on probation and what happens with my charges?

So I have about 15 different charges all charged with at the same time so ive only been charged with crimes one time I violated 2 but I’ve changed my ways and was able to get a final chance by the judge because I made it clear I want to change but now that im out it’s been very difficult my mother and i are not the usual family I’ve never had a strong relationship due to her stubbornness she works hard to provide for the family and I’m able to understand that but she worked hard to maintain a family of 5 now 6 but I was the child that didn’t quiet get the same love and I can’t blame her it’s she’s been a single mother since I was 8 but long story short I never got the same love and not that I care but she doesn’t support me never has never appreciated anything I’ve done I’ was forced to give up my childhood because i had to help she worked doing outside labor in intense sun and I’m trying to do right but She’s always trying to argue and I just want to leave please help.